Being a wife?

Dah lama banget ya bund ga nulis di sini. Kesibukan di kantor menyebabkan bund nyaris ga punya waktu lagi buat ngeblog. Begitu juga dengan aktivitas di rumah, rasanya waktu bund bersama Hafidz dan Hanif sungguh sempit. Bermain saja rasanya ga ada puas-puas nya, bagaima mungkin waktu yang berharga itu bund gunakan buat menulis di blog. Bund lagi menikmati masa-masa yang sangat indah bersama mereka. Jikapun di saat week end ada ‘me time’ saat keduanya bobo, bund lebih memilih membaca ketimbang menulis. Maafkan bund ya Abah, yang belum bisa memaksimalkan produktivitas di saat-saat sibuk, seperti tekad bund ke Abah :) Di postingan ini Bund meng-copy-paste lirik nasyid judulnya Zamiloony, yang bund peroleh di kajian muslimah jumatan di Kantor, yang kebetulan topiknya tentang Bunda Khadijah. At the first time Bund mendengarkan nasyid ini, air mata Bund menetes. Bund tidak bisa menahan keharuan di dada ini.. Subhanallah.. Bund langsung membayangkan begitu banyak hal. Betapa indahnya cinta dan kasih sayang yang terjalin antara Bunda Khadijah dengan Rasulullah SAW. Betapa berartinya bunda Khadijah bagi Rasulullah SAW. Betapa menyejukkannya sosok seorang Bunda Khadijah di mata Rasulullah SAW, sehingga mampu menentramkan kegelisahan beliau ketika menerima wahyu pertama kali. Khadijah menghibur beliau: Jangan begitu, bergembirahlah. Demi Allah, Allah tidak akan merendahkanmu . Demi Allah, sungguh engkau telah menyambung tali persaudaraan, engkau jujur dalam berkata, engkau telah memikul beban orang lain, engkau sering membantu keperluan orang tak punya, menjamu tamu dan selalu membela kebenaran. Semakin bund mendengarkan kisah beliau, yang diceritakan oleh ustadzah, semakin bund merasa Syahdu. Betapa sholehahnya Bunda Khadijah, sebagai seorang istri (dan pastinya juga sebagai seorang ibu)… Bund langsung malu… Bund langsung mengingat-ingat, sekeras apakah usaha yang telah bund lakukan untuk menjadi istri sholehah? Istri yang menyejukkan hati suami? Istri yang mendamaikan jiwa suaminya? Telaga untuk suami berkaca, bercermin, dan menentramkan hati? Rasanya masih mengecewakan.. Apakah selama ini Bund hanya sekedar teman diskusi, teman curhat, teman berbagi, rekan bisnis.  Tidak lebih…? Padahal rasanya Abah sudah begitu keras berusaha menjadi imam yang baik bagi Bund.. Apakah bund juga sudah berusaha sekeras itu? Bagaimana dengan sikap bund kepada Hafidz dan Hanif, jundi-jundi tersayang, tercinta, terkasih…. Apakah bund sudah melakukan kewajiban sebagai bunda dengan baik? Limpahan kasih sayang ini, cinta ini. Adakah kebaikan yang telah bund contohkan kepada mereka? ya Rabbi, beri kami umur yang panjang, agar kami mampu mendidik anak-anak kami menjadi anak yang sholeh.. ya Rabbi, lembutkan hati kami sebagai suami istri agar hati ini selalu terbuka untuk meneladani keindahan kisah rumah tangga Rasulullah SAW… Jakarta, 19 April 2010 <<coretan Bund di 6 bulan usianya Hanif>>

Zamilooni (Nashid)

He stepped inside his home, and he overwhelmed with fear An angel came with words from God, things were still unclear Saying read – read, but he couldn’t read, then amazing words he heard A trembling deep inside his heart, confused by what had occurred There was only one who could comfort him And help him see the light To ease his fears, to reassure It was khadijah, his wife Chorus He said Zamilooni, Zamilooni, Dathirooni, Dathirooni, (Envelop me, Embrace me) A mighty task has come before me I need you here with me By my side She was a woman of nobility, successful in all her trade Many wealthy men had asked for her, she had turned them all away But when she saw Muhammad, a shining moon, may peace be on his soul He was a light for her – so right for her – her life will now be whole But she had never seen him so distressed, as he was there that day She would comfort him, and hold him tight, and chase his doubts away Chorus We look for stories of love, in places dark and cold When we have a guiding light, for the whole world to behold But were so selfish in our ways, and to the ones we hold so close Our own pleasure and happiness is what we value most But she sacrificed all her wealth and everything she had And he honored her, and gave her faith, when the times were bad, when times were bad… Now years have passed, times had changed, since khadijah breathed her last. Message of the one true God, was spreading far and vast But then he came across a necklace, that khajidah once had worn His eyes began to swell with tears, his heart again began to mourn Cause she was there for him, when times were rough, and his enimies were cruel Was the first believer, so keen and eager, to comfort al-Rasool Chorus Mawlaya salli wa sallim da’iman abada ‘Ala habibika khayril khalqi kullihimi (O my Leader, send your salutations and blessings forever Upon Your Beloved, the best of the whole of creation)